It's been a while. God told me He had a special present for me... a promise. I was so tickled. I got little "notices in the mail" letting me know that yes, my package was on the way. Friends agreed and were joyful with me. "Oh, praise Him, what a good gift this will be!" "I know!" I gushed, "I can hardly wait!" (I've hardly been waiting
well, for sure.)"Well, Lord, I know it's coming so I trust you," I'd pray. And I'd do another Tuesday, and hope that Wednesday would be the day.
Tears were shed when the "promised gift" still hadn't arrived weeks later.
(There may have even been one or two verbal "I-can't-do-this-any-longer fits.")
And here we are, making Christmas lists again, and I find myself looking back on so much of the same. I find myself needing my quiet time more than ever and yet wondering if that will be enough. Will those words mean much today?
And I sat. My sweet Father delivered this message to my heart.
Ephesians 3:19.
Lord, why do I do day after day? Waiting on promises? I want that gift so badly! You are the one that told me to look forward to it! Why must I do Monday and Tuesday and Wednesday and Thursday and another November and December and January and February (you know how I dislike winter!) and then hold my breath until Spring and then hope and then hope some more and...
Ephesians 3:19, He says.
To know (come to know...in a judicial sense, to know by trial, to learn, find out, to believe) this love that surpasses knowledge (present and fragmentary knowledge) - that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
"So that you will BELIEVE by experiencing life with ME who I AM beyond what you see today.
You see, child, you would never begin to know the depth of my unfailing love, without days of experiencing it.
The past January, February, March, April, May, June, July, August, September, and October have been about my love.
Today is about my love.
And when he comes home that will be about My love and just the sweetest drop of foreshadowing to the gush of love that is our Groom - the return of Glory, our Emmanuel once again."
with us.